“I cry every morning on the way to work, and I cry every morning on the way home,” Savannah Guthrie said quietly — a raw confession of life lived between duty and heartbreak.

Savannah Guthrie has shared a deeply emotional glimpse into how she is navigating life as her family continues to endure an unimaginable and unresolved tragedy — the disappearance of her 84-year-old mother, Nancy Guthrie, who vanished from her Arizona home on February 1.

Four months later, with no suspects publicly named and the investigation still ongoing, the uncertainty remains painfully present in every part of her daily life.

Returning to work at NBC’s Today in April, Savannah admitted the journey back has not been about moving on — but about learning how to keep going while carrying grief that never truly leaves.

Speaking candidly during a recent conversation with Jenna Bush Hager, she described the reality of her emotional state in simple, heartbreaking terms: “I’m working it out, step by step.”

She referenced a passage of scripture that has stayed with her throughout these months — a reminder that sometimes survival is not about strength or answers, but about endurance. “There’s a time in life when just walking and not growing faint is about as good as it can get,” she said, explaining that this is exactly how she feels now: still moving forward, even when everything inside feels heavy.

Savannah revealed that her emotions come in waves she cannot control. “I cry every morning on the way to work, and I cry every morning on the way home,” she shared, holding back tears. Yet she also expressed gratitude for the environment around her — describing the Today show as a “family” that has helped her stay grounded through one of the most difficult periods of her life.

But perhaps the most powerful part of her message was not about her own pain — it was about how she speaks to her children, Vale, 11, and Charley, 9.

She explained that she is trying to teach them something she is also learning herself: that grief and joy can exist at the same time. “We can hold our sadness, and we can hold our joy,” she said. “And if you don’t believe it, just watch me.”

Behind the public strength, Savannah admitted there are moments she struggles to keep herself together. “I’ve been trying so hard to hold it,” she said quietly, adding that she often promises her children she will keep going — even when it feels impossible.

The disappearance of her mother, Nancy, has remained a source of heartbreak and unanswered questions. Authorities in Arizona have confirmed that Nancy is believed to have been abducted from her Tucson home in the early hours of February 1. The Pima County Sheriff’s Department and the FBI continue to investigate, but no suspects have been identified in the months since.

Savannah previously stepped away from her hosting duties at Today to be with her family during the initial stages of the investigation. She returned to the show in April following an emotional interview in which she described how her children were also struggling to process the uncertainty — with her daughter once asking, “Any leads? Any hope?”

Despite the ongoing pain, Savannah says she feels a responsibility to show resilience not only for her children, but for herself. She has spoken about choosing to keep working as a way of honoring her mother’s own strength, recalling that Nancy would have encouraged her to “just keep going.”

Even in the darkest moments, she says she is holding onto that belief — that life can still contain both sorrow and light at the same time.

And for now, that quiet act of continuing — one day, one step, one breath at a time — is how she is surviving the weight of not knowing what happened to the woman she calls her mother.